your song

Elton John

"It's a little bit funny this feeling insideI'm not one of those who can easily
hideI don't have much money but boy if I didI'd buy a big house where we
both could liveIf I was a sculptor, but then again, noOr a man who makes
potions in a travelling showI know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for youAnd you can tell everybody this
is your songIt may be quite simple but now that it's doneI hope you don't
mindI hope you don't mind that I put down in wordsHow wonderful life is
while you're in the worldI sat on the roof and kicked off the mossWell a few
of the verses well they've got me quite crossBut the sun's been quite kind
while I wrote this songIt's for people like you that keep it turned onSo
excuse me forgetting but these things I doYou see I've forgotten if they're
green or they're blueAnyway the thing is what I really meanYours are the
sweetest eyes I've ever seen"

"
Makes you Smile :)
A teaspoon of honeyA drop of April rainA soft grey bunnyThe best
summer all over againStirring green teaSwallowing gulps of fresh air
Kissing high on chestnut treesSleeping on cloverleaves as snug as bears Running by the silver beachIn the backseat of a carTalking melodies with easeSitting inches
apartThe breeze plays with your fringe like a teaseWhile on the train back into townWe share each others school books for notesOur feet are dancing, no longer on the groundAnd our minds are elsewhere, while staring at the wordsGalaxies and stars galore I can see the sea belowThe train is moving so close to the beachBut both our worlds are far away from shoreThe blazing sun seems within hand’s reachBut the only thing I want to touch is right hereSitting next to me is you, dear."nika-nikol

Heart Break Number 3

Wondering when is takinga toll on me
exhausting my eyes and ramping up my heart
the sky is so much brighter now
songs are so much sadder
we are better off this way
its my worst nightmare
to live without you as mine
but over time i have realized
that this is what you want
here, take it, its already broken!



----my heart was torn when i wrote this due to the love of my life starting to date a new girl but looking back at it i realize that this is just one small step closer to my happiness in the love department i am only grownign from experience to experience.

old diary writing from 09-25-06

These times where the world is perfect can be changed in a split
second. everything is grand and then there is a dent in your car and your
record is now amazingly damaged again. you look to the authority
in disgust becasue of one of their teamates is making your life hell.
maybe its when the love of your life has sex with a one night stand
when he just lost his virginity three weeks ago. you feel like everything
is better than you ever imagined and then there is a crash into your perfect world.
Life has never been perfect but when you didnt know what was happening in your surrounding
thats when things seemed perfect. when moms and dads loved each other
true love was destined
money was no issue, alcohol and drugs werent even existance,
car wrecks werennt possible without a license.
now days i see the real world and i usually love it but today it feels
as if its against me and i cant escape the past and move on.
tommorrow ill be ok but for now im gone to mope about this horrible world
that most wish they didnt exist in, but for me its different
i wish more could exist in this world with me and make it more perfect.
no need for selfsih killers there needs to be more lovers that have gone and pastaway and
less of those who take lives away.
those who wont let people move on and get their life on track.
if thats what the law wants then why not let me keep on going wiht my right track
maybe i can start a trend, i helped a best friend out of his deathbed, how come they cant see the good in that

First Day of college 2007

Ground Breaking Love



"Tender is the night,.." when you relaize how in love you are.

The air outside is a few degrees colder when your this in love.

not many people wait to find it, they just rush into certain parts

and make the magic happen.



A person can know all along that they have met that "one person"

but then that "one person" has other feelings.

this is something that can kill ones soul, and soemtimes

end ones being.

Yes, its very sad and scary, but what can we do

to acoid the pain and frustration?

Nothing, everyone will fall in Love

and axperience this hypnotic feeling at least once



Everything appears different toa person in this state of comma.

its very noticable if you look to see it. Either their eyes have a brighter twinkle or

they just smile like in a daydream of wild flowers.

this powerful love can control ones body and soul.



Everyone has their ups and downs but

being down on love is the worst.

everyone has that first love,

but when you realize you werent theirs

is when the buildings collapse.

the twinkle turns to tears and

the wonderful love that mended your heart

is now gone.

the first time heartbreak.

Cold air overtakes your body in the winter.

their is noone there to cuddle up to,

noone that helps this torn feeling.

you feel like it will never be just "you and him"

it will never sound right to say he broke your heart,

because truely he is the only thing still in it.

he doesnt miss you that way at all,

he feels no remorse.

Love stabs you in the heart

multiple times throughout life, but

" The first cut is the deepest"

-shelley mcgraw

cottages

Me and my roomate are moving into a new cottage behind Mugshots in auigust i cant wait it is like a little dream home. They are all in different colors and we get to name it what ever we please. We contimplated on many different names and settled with "Sugar Magnolia"...i love it. We are adding a roommate to our lives her name is Lori and she is a good friend from home. We love her so much and i think she is going to be my new party buddy. She is very laid back. She likes outdoors which is perfect for me because i need a cmaping partner and a canoeing partner. She is dating a good friend of ours also. the cottage is the perfect size for us and it is on a lake and i cant explain my excitement. I got to pick which cottage we got becaue lauren didnt care about its location she just wanted one in general ha. We cant wait to have a red rocking chairs on our screened in pourch and our plants hanging from the ceilings. We are decorating in yellows and browns and blues and red i cant wait. We all get our own bathrooms which is a awesome plus.

phishys

I am obssessed with fish and i love to watch them swim around in their own little world of water. If i could live underwater i would. My favoriter view is underneath the water in a pool or in the ocean with goggles. I wish i could swim around in the ocean and enjjoy the beauty of the corals ont he sea floor. I went ot petsmart today and bought a fish, a beta fish and names it PHISH after the band phish i love them. PHISH is bright purple and blue almost neon. He doesnt swim much but when you tape on the glass he gets mad and puffs up so you can see all of his colors and every strand on his tail. I put him in a small vase and added things that i have collected over the years. I have a seashell that is form my best friend Julia in the tank and i have rocks from many places i have been in the past. I collect rocks pretty much every where i go. I have red and brown and white ones covering the bottom of the vase. Then their is a metal butterfly that i kept in my car for many years but i broke so i put it in the vase. It means alot to me.

I cry

I miss him so much my soul aches
my stomach turns over everytime i see long brown hair
I think of him looking at her with passion
I cry
Today was a realization that i will go on
the world is not going to wait on me
to get back on track
Love is true Love is Fake
so much to say but heartach overtakes
I cry
Come Back to me inthe past ill say
take me away
Come Back to me today i dont know what to say
take your space and let me hurt
ill make it either way
I WANT you back in my life
fully in your heart is were i belong
I cry
i wait and will wait till you realize
im the best soulmate you will ever find
I cry

wonderful poem

"How can one continue loving a drunkwho makes their lives just like hell?How can one continue living a liethinking they'll one day get well?Why is it we stay with these sad oneswho can't see the err of their ways?Why is it we put up with so muchsome days is it us that are crazed?We want them to quit, surely we doit's not up to us, they're in control;drinking their lives into the groundtaking us with them, body and soul.We make excuses, cover their trailsenable the disease to progress;let's halt it now, or forever stopwe've got to make it regress.We can't stop you drinking, only you canmake it better for all those concerned;quit while we're still a family,before we all leave ' cause we're burned.Love changes to pity, you're alonewe can't live with you any more;for the sanity of all involvedwe're kicking you out through the door"-Erika Foley

note to mr right

Dear ___________

I think of you as the best person in my life. You mean the world to me. I dont know why I cant be happy for you moving on with other girls. I know that i should be but it hurts me more than you can imagine. I look at you and i feel my eyes light up. You seem so right for me, why dont you see it? I feel like you are poking at my heart with a needle. im starting to think that true love doesnt exist anymore. you know me so well, so i know you understand that im hurting. you dont ever help it though, you run from me when you think im upset. i cant do this with questions in my head anymore. i want you to tell me if it is over, tell me straight up. i know you think it will hurt but i will get over it. its better for me to start healing now than to live another day believing i will be with you and only you one day.
I Love You,
Shelley

bored in world civ.

The world is a canvas
and we are the brushes that paint it the way it is
we dip ourselves into buckets of different colors
over time there may be a color you dont like
just get some pure water and start over
sometimes we get to many colors that weigh us down
and everythign turns dark and muddy we cant see light
but then wash your bristles clean and eventually you will be ok
we paint the world into many different views
we paint our life to be perfect
when their is a mistake we cant handle it and need guidance
we sometime allow a teacher to help us and put us back into the lines
drawn out by our imaginations
allow other colors into your life let your self grow
expieriment and find unknown hues
dont let it all pile up take a break and puurify your mind
becasue it will get muddy again if you allow it
alwasy keep your mind clear but full of color.

It is up to us which bucket we choose.

We paint the world how it is,
you have to change your color to chagne the world
you cant just add more or another color
it will only cause chaos.

Me and JuJu are in the black and white picture she is my best friend from highschool and will be forever i love her sooo much .

Above is me and chase my wonderful Valentine!!!! And best neighbor ever!

new essay idea

-Write abour your dream life and what you would be like. Tell about how you as a person would be different. If you had the chance to change your life as it is now into the dream life you are writting about, would you change it? why or why not?

****This paper will be 3-4 pages long and will need illustration to it on a seperate page.

Grammar and spelling will be graded so proof read before turning it in.

my beautiful mom

she is one of a kind
like many she gets frustrated with us all the time
she means no hate but sometimes thats what she lets escape
she loves us more than the moon and sun
sometimes she wishes we could be on our own
she is our rock and precious stone
she makes us laugh and cry
we wonder how she was so alone
with both of us gone she seems lost
but really she has finally found her self in a world of love
she gets the butterflies like when she was our age
she wonders how life can be going so good
she loves her soul mate with all her heart and we have accepted him into ours
she made herself up so good that i can never see her falling again
she is my gem my heart and my goal
to be as happy as she is in the horrible world
one day i know she will see it and she will stand back
she raised two wonderful children who wont look back
we will never judge her on how she used to be
becasue the beauty she is now makes up for everything
she is the superwoman of her generation if she made it then so can anyone
i have never seen a woman work so hard to keep a family life when there is not one
she made this world beautiful for us and i am so thankful for that
she doesnt even know how much she influenced us
our future goals are to take care of her the way she did us
to lead her through this beautiful life when she cant do it on her own
my mom is my gem
my precious glowing stone

life as of now

valentines day was wonderful. three of my bestfriends that i graduated with came to hattiesburg to stay with me. i went on a date to sakura with my neighbor chase, he paid for everythign at dinner and came to the door with flowers i was so excited. i was recently broken up with around thanksgiving and he knew that valentines day would be a weird day for me so he said he wanted to make me feel special. ha sounds pitiful maybe, but i loved it. it really did make me feel special. we went to the hunt club after and saw Zoso play it was awesome. I got to party wiht chase and my three bestfriends. After the concert we went into the bowling ally that is connected to it and played a few rounds. they gave us a freegame or two to my remeberance.....we might have just kept playing though. we danced up and down the isles and twirled and laughed so hard. All in all it was a wonderful night and i would love to re live it.

accounting

Accounting is my major and everyone freaks out when they hear that. Everyone has told me from the begining that im going to hate it and not understand whats going on in the class. Well i knew that i would make it and enjoy it because math is my favorite class and i enjoy doing math homework and anythign to do with math. I entered my Accounting class with a high head and now its burning me. Class is so confusing and im considering changing my major due to the confusion i am having. I always thought people were wrong and i could prove to them i could do itbut now im thinking differently. I want to find another passion to base my future carrer on because this isnt looking to good. I want to become a CPA but I also want to have the enthusiastic life style that i dream of. I love life to much to sit in missery in a office all day if i am not enjoying myself. So this is my semester to figure out what i want and what im going to do wiht my future and if i am even going to pursue math. There so many more things that i would love to do but money is an issue and I have to look at that side of it also. My parents say do something that will keep me intersted for a long time because ill be doing it the rest of my life, thats a lot to think about for me. I am just going to take it by a ten year view point and see how that works on my mind. Maybe ill decide to stick with it but maybe I will fall into a whole different route. Ill let the world know my plan as soon as I figure it out myself.

response

Ms. McGraw; I've forwarded your email up to the garages general manager,Dennis Delaney. He can compile the best answers for your questions. Itmay take him a day or two to get back to you. David Doane Parking & Transportation



i recieved this from a guy at the University of Texas and i will post any further information i recieve.

questions?

1. What are your thoughts about having parking garages on campus?
2. Is there a security system involved in your parking department?
3. How many officers are on campus to regulate parking?
4. Is handicap parking a major focus for your parking department?
5. How many parking spots are reserved for on campus residents?
6. How big is your campus (radius)?
7. How many Students and Faculty attend your university?
8. Is there a parking garage on your campus? How long was it in discussion before the garage began to be built?
9. How many tickets on average are given a day due to improper parking?
10. What was the main reason the University built a parking garage? What kind of complaints were made before the garage?



******I have not yet recieved answers

~~~*~~*questions???

1. What was the main reason the University built a parking garage? What kind of complaints were made before the garage?

Mr. Mardi Gras

Mardi Gras was amazing and very interesting..... it began wiht one of the best nightss of my life and ended wiht a beautiful ride home a few days later. The weekend was dedicated to my friend thomas in the far left of the picture in the yellow shirt it was his 21st birthday and he was Mr. Mardi Gras. The guy beside him in the icture is Blake he is one of my best friends i graduated with.... he was arrested a few hours after this picture. We all had so much fun. My best friend in the whoel world drove 10 hours to come see us all she is the girl in the green dress. all the girls in the picture to the left are her roommates except for Katie who is in the red jacket....Katie is my other best friend since i was four. We all stayed in my friends condo....a one bed room condo but it suited us just fine. Everythign was so great but one thing horrible happened. I saw a guy on the street get shot and killed and i had to identify the shooter to the cops. It definatley put me into shock and made me very depressed for the guy who died. I was very lucky to not have been hurt my self. The guy did it in a way like it was nothing. It was so casual.... thats why i dont understand how he could live with himself after just slaughtering a human. It definatley was a eye opener for me and i am not sure that i will be going back any time soon. I hope they catch the heartless guy that did it.... all in all it was a reat trip very crazy though

nugget

It was about two months ago when i went pet crazy and got a kitten and a dwarf hampster. There was only one hampster that i liked. He was a obese dwarf hampster. When i held him i knew he was the one i wanted. He was a little ball of fur and i loved him soo much. He made me laugh constantly, especially when he ran around the house in his little plastic blue ball. The first week we had nugget we had a friend call us and ask if we wanted a kitten. My roommate and I could not resist. So we took the kitten home and named it Boston. He is a black and white fluffy kitten. Nugget loved to run around in his cage and entertain Boston. Boston always taps the cage and tries to play with Nugget. Me and my roommate love our pests so much and always watch them play with each other. Last night Boston was pulling Nugget's cage and i ran over to the cage so he would not tump it over and he had hurt Nugget. Nugget was stuck between two of the metal bars that make his cage. My roommate pryed Nugget out and we both freaked out. Nuggets skin was pulled back on his whole bottom half. It was one of the worst thing i could have imagined to happen to him. I miss him so much, he was sooo adorable and sweet. I know it sounds ridiculous that i would get so upset about a hampster but i did and am. we sat in the animal Er for a long time last night and ended up putting him to sleep. i hope he is ok now and that there is a animal heaven. It makes me so sad to not here him drinking his body weight in water and i dont see him climbing to side of the cage all day long.

newyooorrrrrkkkk

snowy roads and fire nights

so it snowed two days ago and i love the snow.... and so me and my roommate went riding in my car on the icy roads.... not smart i know..... and when we took a turn to go see a snowman my car slide into a ditch going one mile per hour and ended up verticle in the air.....haha it really was one of the funniest moments i have had in a while. The ditch i ended up in was in the firestations yard, and since you dont know this i have a huge fetish with firemen...... young firemen.....so yea two young firemen run out with smiles on their faces and they ask me how i managed to get myself in the ditch at that angle....all i could say beneath my laughing was "i really dont know". The reason i was so close to the ditch in the first place was because there was a tow truck getting a guy out of the ditch across the street, i tried to make it buy but didn't. so the firemen lifted me and my roomate up and put us on the back of my truck to try and lift it o0ut but the car didnt budge. so then the two firemen got on the trunck also, and out came my car with the slight tug of a chain. By the end of all the chaos we had made friends with the firemen and went home and made them brownies and i drew a picture of my car on them and put powdered sugar as the snow....when i walked into the station later that day they were so excited about the brownies.... they let me and my roomates play in the fire trucks and blow the horns and turn the sirens on....it was a dream of mine come true..... we watched tv and ate pizza with them and talked for about a hour and then went home i have not stopped smilling and and laughing since we left because only this could happen to me...and have it turn out to be a good situation
LOVE-
shelley