your song

Elton John

"It's a little bit funny this feeling insideI'm not one of those who can easily
hideI don't have much money but boy if I didI'd buy a big house where we
both could liveIf I was a sculptor, but then again, noOr a man who makes
potions in a travelling showI know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for youAnd you can tell everybody this
is your songIt may be quite simple but now that it's doneI hope you don't
mindI hope you don't mind that I put down in wordsHow wonderful life is
while you're in the worldI sat on the roof and kicked off the mossWell a few
of the verses well they've got me quite crossBut the sun's been quite kind
while I wrote this songIt's for people like you that keep it turned onSo
excuse me forgetting but these things I doYou see I've forgotten if they're
green or they're blueAnyway the thing is what I really meanYours are the
sweetest eyes I've ever seen"

"
Makes you Smile :)
A teaspoon of honeyA drop of April rainA soft grey bunnyThe best
summer all over againStirring green teaSwallowing gulps of fresh air
Kissing high on chestnut treesSleeping on cloverleaves as snug as bears Running by the silver beachIn the backseat of a carTalking melodies with easeSitting inches
apartThe breeze plays with your fringe like a teaseWhile on the train back into townWe share each others school books for notesOur feet are dancing, no longer on the groundAnd our minds are elsewhere, while staring at the wordsGalaxies and stars galore I can see the sea belowThe train is moving so close to the beachBut both our worlds are far away from shoreThe blazing sun seems within hand’s reachBut the only thing I want to touch is right hereSitting next to me is you, dear."nika-nikol

Heart Break Number 3

Wondering when is takinga toll on me
exhausting my eyes and ramping up my heart
the sky is so much brighter now
songs are so much sadder
we are better off this way
its my worst nightmare
to live without you as mine
but over time i have realized
that this is what you want
here, take it, its already broken!



----my heart was torn when i wrote this due to the love of my life starting to date a new girl but looking back at it i realize that this is just one small step closer to my happiness in the love department i am only grownign from experience to experience.

old diary writing from 09-25-06

These times where the world is perfect can be changed in a split
second. everything is grand and then there is a dent in your car and your
record is now amazingly damaged again. you look to the authority
in disgust becasue of one of their teamates is making your life hell.
maybe its when the love of your life has sex with a one night stand
when he just lost his virginity three weeks ago. you feel like everything
is better than you ever imagined and then there is a crash into your perfect world.
Life has never been perfect but when you didnt know what was happening in your surrounding
thats when things seemed perfect. when moms and dads loved each other
true love was destined
money was no issue, alcohol and drugs werent even existance,
car wrecks werennt possible without a license.
now days i see the real world and i usually love it but today it feels
as if its against me and i cant escape the past and move on.
tommorrow ill be ok but for now im gone to mope about this horrible world
that most wish they didnt exist in, but for me its different
i wish more could exist in this world with me and make it more perfect.
no need for selfsih killers there needs to be more lovers that have gone and pastaway and
less of those who take lives away.
those who wont let people move on and get their life on track.
if thats what the law wants then why not let me keep on going wiht my right track
maybe i can start a trend, i helped a best friend out of his deathbed, how come they cant see the good in that

First Day of college 2007

Ground Breaking Love



"Tender is the night,.." when you relaize how in love you are.

The air outside is a few degrees colder when your this in love.

not many people wait to find it, they just rush into certain parts

and make the magic happen.



A person can know all along that they have met that "one person"

but then that "one person" has other feelings.

this is something that can kill ones soul, and soemtimes

end ones being.

Yes, its very sad and scary, but what can we do

to acoid the pain and frustration?

Nothing, everyone will fall in Love

and axperience this hypnotic feeling at least once



Everything appears different toa person in this state of comma.

its very noticable if you look to see it. Either their eyes have a brighter twinkle or

they just smile like in a daydream of wild flowers.

this powerful love can control ones body and soul.



Everyone has their ups and downs but

being down on love is the worst.

everyone has that first love,

but when you realize you werent theirs

is when the buildings collapse.

the twinkle turns to tears and

the wonderful love that mended your heart

is now gone.

the first time heartbreak.

Cold air overtakes your body in the winter.

their is noone there to cuddle up to,

noone that helps this torn feeling.

you feel like it will never be just "you and him"

it will never sound right to say he broke your heart,

because truely he is the only thing still in it.

he doesnt miss you that way at all,

he feels no remorse.

Love stabs you in the heart

multiple times throughout life, but

" The first cut is the deepest"

-shelley mcgraw

cottages

Me and my roomate are moving into a new cottage behind Mugshots in auigust i cant wait it is like a little dream home. They are all in different colors and we get to name it what ever we please. We contimplated on many different names and settled with "Sugar Magnolia"...i love it. We are adding a roommate to our lives her name is Lori and she is a good friend from home. We love her so much and i think she is going to be my new party buddy. She is very laid back. She likes outdoors which is perfect for me because i need a cmaping partner and a canoeing partner. She is dating a good friend of ours also. the cottage is the perfect size for us and it is on a lake and i cant explain my excitement. I got to pick which cottage we got becaue lauren didnt care about its location she just wanted one in general ha. We cant wait to have a red rocking chairs on our screened in pourch and our plants hanging from the ceilings. We are decorating in yellows and browns and blues and red i cant wait. We all get our own bathrooms which is a awesome plus.

phishys

I am obssessed with fish and i love to watch them swim around in their own little world of water. If i could live underwater i would. My favoriter view is underneath the water in a pool or in the ocean with goggles. I wish i could swim around in the ocean and enjjoy the beauty of the corals ont he sea floor. I went ot petsmart today and bought a fish, a beta fish and names it PHISH after the band phish i love them. PHISH is bright purple and blue almost neon. He doesnt swim much but when you tape on the glass he gets mad and puffs up so you can see all of his colors and every strand on his tail. I put him in a small vase and added things that i have collected over the years. I have a seashell that is form my best friend Julia in the tank and i have rocks from many places i have been in the past. I collect rocks pretty much every where i go. I have red and brown and white ones covering the bottom of the vase. Then their is a metal butterfly that i kept in my car for many years but i broke so i put it in the vase. It means alot to me.